Saturday, July 17, 2010

July 17, 2010

Diet and Yoga

I was right about yoga class; it was wonderful. Joseph (my favorite yoga teacher ever) was all about me today. This can be good or bad. Today I'm not so sure. When your yoga teacher is all about you, it usually means you will be having a much more difficult practice than you would have. I.e. Can you reach your foot?

No.

*push* Oh look, now you can.

*sob*

So good but painful, I guess. Still he is an amazing teacher. When I open my yoga studio I will definitely make sure he works there.

Ah, the diet. It's going good but I'm thinking about switching to another diet (or lifestyle, as everyone loves to call diets nowadays). I've been reading a lot about primal. The biggest problem with going primal is the minor fact that I am a vegetarian. Yeah, it makes things a bit difficult. But I do eat fish and I do eat eggs so I might give it a go.

When you go primal you can't ever eat any grains at all. No dairy either. You can eat quinoa, beans and fruit occasionally. Mainly you eat fish, eggs, vegetables, nuts and seeds. Love that variety. I don't know. Of course after looking around AndreAnna's site I see there are lots of options for faking not-allowed food. She's made pizza crust and "rice" with cauliflower. She's also made fake oatmeal and pancakes and freaking bread. That doesn't seem so bad. Plus she has amazing before and after pictures. Good Lord, in 3 weeks?

I also had a bit of a breakdown today. I ate a lot of badness. I was fine, perfectly fine until we went out to dinner. Even though I ate fine when I got home I wanted that stupid ice cream stupid Jake got me. Whatever. It happened. All I can do is move on.

Best part of the day

Taking Maggie to visit her grandmother, grandfather and aunt. They love her so much and it's great to see her interacting with them.

Gratitude

I am so grateful I got to go to a yoga class today. See I told you.

Friday, July 16, 2010

July 16, 2010

Diet and Yoga

So yesterday wasn't so great on the food front. I definitely wanted to eat just to eat, which is bad. Today I fought the urge all day. I wonder sometimes if I don't get a little self-destructive the closer I get to my goal. Maybe. . . or maybe I'm just sick of eating fish, veggies, beans, eggs and cheese.

That's the thing: the bad, processed junk is so good. I love it but it hates me. It makes me feel and look like crap. And it truly is addictive.

And speaking of sabotaging (well, we sort of were), Jake bought me a pint of Ben and Jerry's Half Baked. What a punk. I'm on a freaking diet, man!

I did better at doing yoga at home today. I love yoga but it's hard at home. I have to really fight the urge to slack.

In better news, remember when I was buying jeans and I couldn't decide to buy size 6 or 8. Well, I went with 6. . . and now they're too big. Oh happy days. Seriously I feel like crying over that. Size 4 jeans. That's crazy talk. How can I be small enough for that? I do not know but I like it.

Best part of my day

Listening to Maggie's belly laughs while I 'got' her. You know the game: "I'm gonna get you." She laughed so hard. Oh, my baby is so sweet. Or rather my toddler is so sweet.

Gratitude

I am grateful for my podcasts that enable me to do yoga at home (I'm not going to be coming up with my own routine--I mean, I could do it for someone else but not for me). It's nice to know that I don't have to stop Maggie from falling asleep so we can go to my yoga class.

Still, I'm sure tomorrow I'll be grateful for going to my yoga class.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

July 15, 2010

Diet and Yoga

First, I lost again for another low, which is great. Only 9.2 pounds to go. However, I did yoga, ran intervals and did some strength exercises. I guess that was a bit much. Unfortunately I was ravished after that. So instead of my usual beans and veggies for lunch, I ate a few big spoonfuls of peanut butter, several cheese sticks, and one and a half whole grain English muffins. I guess it wasn't horrible but I don't feel so hot about it.

I did yoga at home with a podcast. It's hard for me to do a home practice. I don't know why. Probably because no one is watching.

Best part of my day

Maggie was especially cute today. Probably because I'm stopping the potty training until we get back from our vacation. I decided that as long as we're out for 2-4 hours a day and she's napping another 2-4 hours a day and wearing a diaper while out and while napping, she's unlikely to ever figure it out. So when I get back I'm clearing my schedule so we can be at home in panties, no diapers. Hopefully it won't take too long. I just need to be super consistent; no going out. No playdates, no gym, no nothing. Yikes.

Gratitude

Today I got a letter from the IRS saying I owed them more money. At first I was really upset but then I realized it must be a mistake because I made a payment to them in that exact amount. Phew! Of course, now I have to get in touch with the IRS and straighten the whole thing out but still. . . very grateful.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

July 14, 2010

South Beach Diet and Yoga

The diet's going great. I'm down to another low, only 9.8 pounds til my main goal. I may want to lose more once I get there but seeing as that's the lowest I've ever been, that's my goal.

Yoga is blissful. I had another great class today. My legs have gotten so strong. I have almost no cellulite on my thighs anymore. Woo hoo!!!

Best part of my day

I love picking Maggie up from daycare after yoga class. She is always so excited. It makes me happy to see her standing there, looking for me. It just makes me feel so happy.

Also I really like being part of a mommy group. It's so nice to have other mommy friends.

Gratitude

I feel so grateful. I have such abundance in my life. I am a lucky woman.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

July 7, 2010

Happiness Project: Make the choice not to take things personally

I am so bad about this. I seem to love to take things personally. I think I love playing the martyr. If someone is having a bad day and snaps at me I will give them the very obvious silent treatment until they apologize. Cause that's gonna help their day out.

I'm getting better about this but it's definitely something I struggle with. Everything isn't about me!

Day 17 of the South Beach Diet

I gained some today. I think this has a lot to do with being, uh, plugged up. Sorry not trying to be graphic but that's my best guess.

Best part of the day

Floating in my MIL's pool. Cool water, one of those mesh bottom floats, hot sun, Maya occupied. Bliss

Gratitude

I love my yoga teacher. I make sure nothing gets in the way of going to the three classes he teaches each week. His classes are amazing. They fly by. He's funny. I am so grateful I didn't give up trying to get to the first class of his I went to (I got lost). He is an amazing teacher and I am so grateful to be able to take his classes.

July 6, 2010

Happiness Project: Hug, kiss and touch more

Again, pretty self-explanatory. I know that skin to skin touch releases feel-good, bonding hormones (which is why mommies are told to hold their naked babies against their bare chests). So more touch is always good, in any relationship.

Day 16 of the South Beach Diet

Uh, doing well. I think I lost another 0.2 pound. Woo hoo! Closing in.

Best part of my day

R and I took Maggie to a petting zoo today. It was so cute watching her interact with all the little animals. The funniest part was when she got pecked by a chicken. It didn't hurt but her reaction was so shocked.

She also kicked a cow. R put her near the cow but was holding her up so she could pet him. She started kicking and got him in the face. Poor guy. R pet him a lot as an apology.

Gratitude

I am so grateful for my yoga practice. I love it. I love feeling (and seeing) my body get stronger. I love knowing I can go deeper into a pose or hold it longer. I love flowing through the class. I love, love yoga. Although I'm not at my pre-preggo weight yet, my body (I think) looks amazing, especially my back, arms and shoulders. I feel absolutely amazing.

Monday, July 5, 2010

July 5, 2010

Happiness Project: Say thank you, I love you and I'm sorry more

The thank you goes along with some of my other posts. Cultivate an attitude of gratitude.

I love you is obvious. You can never tell the people you love that too much, especially children. I try to say it often.

I'm sorry. Why is it so hard to say? When I'm wrong, I need to admit I'm wrong. Even if I'm not the only one who is wrong. I shouldn't spend so damn much time worrying about what every body else is doing. I need to keep my side of the street clean and stop worrying and pointing fingers.

Day 15 of the South Beach Diet

Down another 0.6, I think. Woo hoo! I'm at an all-time low for this diet. Plus I actually lost weight while out of town. Seriously that has never ever happened to me.

Best part of the day

Maggie was in a much better mood today. It's amazing how much I love spending time with her. Even when she's being a little stinker, she's still so much fun. I love her so much and feel so lucky to be her mother.

Gratitude

I went to my yoga class this morning. They changed the time from noon to 10am and for whatever reason the teacher didn't show. But it just so happened that a woman that had been there to take the class was a yoga teacher and she taught our class.

When she first started I thought the class was going to be super easy and boring. But it really snuck up on me. I was sweating hard by then end of class, which is always nice.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

July 4, 2010

Happiness Project: Always be grateful

This one is easy when I can remember it. There is almost always a positive outlook when you are having a hard time.

Thank God I left on time or this traffic would have made me late.

Thank God R and I are learning more about each other through this argument.

Thank God Maggie's lungs are so healthy.

There's so much to be grateful and sometimes I forget that I surrounded by abundance. I have a huge family that I love. I have in-laws that I love. I have friends, co-workers, etc. I have my daughter and boyfriend. My home, my car, my clothes. I live in a stable country. I am quite safe. R and I both have jobs. We have college educations. We are so amazingly lucky.

Day 13 of the South Beach Diet

Well I went out of town and didn't cheat. It's amazing to me how much I connect vacation and bingeing. As soon as we got on the road I wanted to stop for fast food, ice cream, snacks, etc. I wanted to eat big every where we went. And it was quite plain that it was just an association thing for me. That's just what I do on road trips and vacations. Which, uh, wow, that's bad. Except I didn't this time. I ate my food that I made at home and brought. I ate nuts and cheese too. I am so proud of myself for not crumbling in the face of temptation. It's hard to do.

I didn't have my scale out there so I don't know what I weigh. Even though I didn't eat any differently I am convinced I will have gained since Saturday. I'm not sure why. Maybe because I've never gone anywhere and not gained but who knows. I guess we'll see in the morning.

Best part of my day

Maggie peed in the potty again today. She didn't go in her diaper almost at all over the past 36 hours or so. When we got home and I put her on her potty (I brought her potty with us but she wouldn't use it), she peed big time. She's getting it. I may have a potty trained daughter soon.

Gratitude

I'm so grateful for my family. I'm grateful I got to stop by and see my grandma's grave. I'm grateful for everything I have.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

July 3, 2010

Happiness Project: Smile

I wrote this one because I have seen a ton of research on how good it is to smile. How it lifts your mood and the mood of those around you. And truly what could be easier. If you feel sad, smile. If you feel angry, smile. It can be hard to do, but it definitely works.

Day 12 of the South Beach Diet

Today was tough. We were at a barbeque with all kinds of yummy looking food and I wanted to dive in elbows deep. But I would have been so sad if I had done that. So far, so good.

Also, I maintained my weight from yesterday, which is fine. Oddly enough this is the first time I've maintained. I've either gained or lost every other day. It's not as good as a loss but it's a heck of a lot better than a gain.

Best part of the day

I had an amazing yoga class again but what was so great was that I got up extra early for it. I was tired when the alarm went off but I got up, got dressed and went to yoga. I feel very proud of my self.

Gratitude

My family. I'm out here with tons of family. Close family, extended family. I love family get-togethers, which is funny because I hated them as a kid (well, a teen). But I just love seeing everyone and Maggie getting to see everyone. It's a great thing to have lots of family.

Friday, July 2, 2010

July 2, 2010

Happiness Project: Focus on the Positive

This is so hard for me. I'm not sure why because every time I do it I think wow this really works and yet I always think it won't work. It won't do to not point out R was wrong about something. It won't do to CHOOSE not to take something personally. It won't do to notice the gorgeous weather and not the bugs. But when I do this it makes me so much happier.

One way that I've found that makes it easier for to remember this is to try to say thank you a lot. And not just to people but, I guess, to God or the universe.

Thank you for this green light.

Thanks you for this great find.

I am so grateful that this yoga class is so hard that my face is soaked in sweat and body is shaking.

I am so grateful I have this moment with my daughter.

When you are constantly saying thank you, it makes it much easier to focus on the positive.

Day 11 of the South Beach Diet

I lost another 0.6 pound. Woo hoo! Definitely going in the right direction now.

I also figured out that I was, unknowingly, eating an off-list food. I was eating low carb yogurt for my dairy every day and it turns out you aren't supposed to do that. So yesterday I switched to low-fat cheese, which is specifically mentioned on his allowed list.

Best part of the day

Maggie peed in the potty today!!! We're on day 5 of potty training boot camp and she did it. We only had one accident (and she was with Daddy--he isn't with her all day so he might have missed something). She also had one success (our first). I was so happy I let her watch cartoons (we never watch any TV) for hours today.

My yoga class was amazing. At one point I went to wipe a bead of sweat that was heading for my eye and when I touched my face I realized the entire thing was soaking wet. I've never been sweaty like that not even when I took hot yoga. How is that possible?

Also guess what size Gap jeans I fit into today. Go on guess. 10? No. 8? No. 6? F*ck yeah!!! Size 6 with 12 pounds to go. I am so freaking happy about this, you have no idea.

Gratitude

I think I'm growing a little. I had a perfect opportunity to say I told you so to R. Several days ago he wanted to know why we weren't staying two days with my family for the fourth of July. I told him because I thought he worked. And made this big deal about how no one works on that day because it's a major federal holiday. I told him that people do work and that I was pretty sure he had no days off until later in the year (they get a lot of time off at Christmas/NYE but very little through the rest of the year).

Then today my uncle asked me if we wanted to stay. I told him to ask R but that it was fine with me. Then after a while, I texted Jake to find out what the deal was and he said we weren't staying Sunday. I didn't ask why but about 10 minutes later I got a text saying (wait for it. . . ) he did have to work. And I didn't write back: I f*cking told you so, sucker!

Growth people, real growth.

Thursday, July 1, 2010

July 1, 2010

Day 10 of the South Beach Diet

Well, I'm back down to my original low on this diet. I lost a pound. Very exciting stuff. 12.8 pounds to go.

Best part of the day

We've got a 3 parter today. My first best part was when Maggie and I went to tumbling class this morning. We did all the activities. I tried to really back off today and see how much she could do on her own. I'm still heavily involved and helping and guiding, I just tried to do that less. She still did really well. At the beginning when they sing and do motions, she just sat there. I think she only did one thing the whole time. I don't think she understood that part. But the rest of it: she did great.

Second best part of my day was my yoga class. I know, I know. I'm obsessed with yoga. But I love it. I met two nice women who also go to my yoga class so that was nice.

Third best part of my day was getting a facial this evening. It was the last part of a gift certificate that R got me. It was blissful. Amazing. Wonderful. Oh, it was so awesome.

Gratitude

I read a post today about a sick child. Or rather a child that is behind developmentally. I cannot even imagine having to deal with that. Having to think about Maggie dealing with that. I am so grateful that she is a healthy child. I know that everyone has their thing; something that holds them back or whatever. And she'll have something just like every other child. But oh, for now I'm so glad she is healthy.