Monday, December 30, 2013

2013 Wrap Up

1. What did you do this year that you’d never done before?
2010--Been successful at staying home full-time (summer break). Taken a vacation as a family. Gone to couple's counseling. Weighed this much (YIKES!). Met R's sister. Renovated an entire huge living room.
2012--Quit a job without another one lined up. Became a nanny.
2013--Hmmm. . . I can't really think of anything. I feel like I've really turned back into me this year. But that happened when I first started taking anti-depressants in 2007 so. . .
2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
2010--1. Keep a clean house between the cleaning lady coming. Seriously this shouldn't be so hard. 2. Continue working on Maggie's education. 3. Do more activities with Maggie, like crafts and classes, etc. 4. Work out 5 times a week; 3 strength and 2 HIIT. 5. Lose weight. 6. Spend lots of time with friends.
2012--I didn't make any last year but I think I will this year. I really want to get better about not procrastinating. I want to exercise. I want to be more present with Maggie more often.
2013--I didn't really keep track at all but I would say I did alright with these. I definitely have been better about getting shit done and I have been mostly exercising this year. And I've been better with Maggie for sure.

This year I do plan on having resolutions and attempting to keep up with them. So far they are for eating better and exercising regularly. I also would really like to put more, consistent effort into finding a partner. And start project based homeschooling without being afraid it's too hard or I'm doing it wrong.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
2010--Laurie gave birth to beautiful Ella Isabel
2012--Sort of, Jake was born this year. Even though I didn't know him (or Kandice) until he was 6 weeks old, I'm very close with them now.
2013--Not really. My best friend from high school and my early 20s had her first baby.
4. Did anyone close to you die? 
2010--My GG
5. What countries did you visit? 
2012--Ha, ha, ha.
6. What would you like to have this year that you lacked last year?
2010--More willingness to do the boring stuff with Maggie. A commitment from R.
2012--A husband, a home of my own.
2013--:( This year I would say exactly the same thing as last year and add more kids and specify a home/farm of my own that I own.
7. What dates from this year will remain etched upon your memory, and why? 
2010--Maggie's birthday, mine and R's anniversary
2012--Maggie meeting Santa Claus (Kandice's friend, Jim, in an amazing costume). Christmas Eve was awesome. When Laurie called and told me she thought my Mirena was causing my horrid depression and then looking it up online. It was like being hit with a brick. Successfully performing the Heimlich on one of my students. 
2013--It's actually been a great year, especially on the being a mom front. I've had so much fun with Maggie this year and we've done so many fun things. Also, unfortunately, finding out my stepmom of almost 20 years is having an affair and will soon be leaving the state and probably our lives for good.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
2010--I've kept my daughter not only alive but doing great. She's learning a lot, she's polite and pretty good. I've done a lot of work on my home and I'm pretty proud of it. I've been extremely successful at work.
2012--Waking up from the Mirena haze. I'm not sure if it's an achievement but it's been amazing to find me again.
2013--Being a mom. I'm not perfect but I feel like I've done a decent job.
9. What was your biggest failure? 
2010--Gaining weight (a lot of weight). That's about it.
2012--Staying so long in a miserable work situation. Even worse, spending so little time with Maggie so I could work more.
2013--I'm not sure. I'm kinda sad that so many things are not different this year from last year. But I'm not sure that's a failure on my part or not.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? 
2010--Stress fracture in my foot and hurt neck from car wreck.
2012-- I got my gallbladder out.
2013-- I got this horrid stomach bug in the summer. I had plantar something or other (a heel issue) from working out barefoot.
11. What was the best thing you bought? 
2010--Our vacations.
2012--Um, I had to pay to get the Mirena out.
2013--My place. Spending on activities for/with Maggie.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? 
2012--I thought Chris Christie giving such credit to Obama and being so willing to work with him during Sandy was great to see.
2013--Edward Snowden; he sacrificed his entire life to tell the truth.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? 
2012--Republicans. From the war on women to the NRA to the "entitlement" programs, jeez.
2013--Everyone. Jesus, it's been a depressing year. Egypt, Syria, Obama, Republicans, Tea Partiers.
14. Where did most of your money go?
2010--Mortgage, bills, travel, debt.
2012--Debt. :(
2013-- Debt.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? 
2010--Laurie's pregnancy and birth. Vacations. R getting in and succeeding in law school.
2012--Morning coffee. Losing weight.
2013-- Christmas
16. What song will always remind you of this year?
2010--No clue. I listen to the same old music so nothing really.
2012--F*ck you by CeeLo
2013-- Thriftshop
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? Happier
b) thinner or fatter? Fatter
c) richer or poorer?About the same
a) happier or sadder?
so much happier :)
b) thinner or fatter? much, much thinner
c) richer or poorer? a lot poorer
a) happier or sadder? I would say happier. I feel so comfortable with myself. Getting older has some amazing benefits.
b) thinner or fatter? A bit fatter. It's funny; once I got to my goal weight last year, I put away my scale and stopped weighing myself. When it started getting cold, I tried to put on my skinny jeans and they wouldn't fit. I kept thinking did they shrink, what's the deal? It took me a while to figure out I'd gained weight. Whoops!
c) richer or poorer? poorer :(
18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
2010-- Spent time with Maggie, doing what she wanted to do.
2012--spend time with Maggie without checking email or my phone, just really being with her
2013-- project based homeschooling
19. What do you wish you’d done less of? 
2010-- Eating. Sitting around.
2012--procrastinate; d!ck around on the internet
2013-- Zoning out on the internet
20. How did you spend Christmas? 
2010--X-Mas Eve I was sick at home with stomach issues but I rallied at hosted Xmas day here at our house.
2012--We had our big Christmas Eve dinner at Aunt Susie's house, then spent the night at Laurie's house. We set up presents, then watched Bad Santa. The girls got up early and opened presents. It was wonderful.
2013-- We had an amazing Christmas. I made a bucket list and got everything done. We did a carriage ride, sugar cookies, festival, Nutcracker, Polar Express, visiting Santa, and driving around looking at Christmas lights while drinking hot chocolate.
21. Did you fall in love this year? 
2012--No. :(
2013-- Nope.
22. What was your favorite TV program/podcasts? 
2010--Lost, The Office, 30 Rock
2012--Um, I watched all of How I Met Your Mother. Very cute.
2013-- Rachel Maddow, Jon Stewart and Colbert, Dexter, Parks and Rec; Adam Carolla, Stuff You Missed in History Class, This American Life
24. What was the best book you read? 
2010--Twilight series
2012--I can't think of anything. That's sad. I've read so much non fiction this year. Homeschooling, parenting, etc.
2013-- I liked Gone Girl and The Baker's Wife; In Defense of Food, Raising your Spirited Child
25. What was your greatest musical discovery? 
2010--I listen to the same music that I have for years and years.
2012-- I don't listen to new music.
2013-- Macklemore
26. What did you want and get? 
2012--To be, essentially, a stay at home mom.
2013-- My own place
27. What did you want and not get?
2012--A husband, a home of my own.
2013-- A husband, a home/farm I own, more kids, out of debt
28. What was your favorite film of this year?
2010--The Dark Knight and The Wackness
2012--Inception, Dark Knight Rises
2013-- The Town, 21 Jump Street
29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? 
2010--28. I had lunch with family.
2012--30. I had dinner and drinks with Laurie, Jeff, Rachel and David in downtown Fort Worth.
2013-- 31. Laurie had a big party for me and all the other summer birthdays. It was great. I rode on a motorcycle for the first time.
30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
2010--Committment or clarity in our relationship. Or maybe a job I didn't hate.
2012--A partner, a home of my own
2013-- A husband, a home/farm I own, more kids, out of debt
31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept this year? 
2010--Nothing dirty or too wrinkled.
2012--Well, lately, it's been skinny jeans and boots. I love that look.
2013-- Keeping all my bits covered.
32. What kept you sane? 
2010--Exercise and Maggie.
2012--Maggie. I think I would have died had I not had Maggie to live for during the Mirena years.
2013-- Knitting, reading, podcasts.
33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? 
2012--The guy in Inception and Robin in Dark Knight Rises. Joseph something. I wanna marry him.
2013-- Joseph Gordon-Levitt. Ryan Gosling.
34. What political issue stirred you the most? 
2012--All of them.
2013-- Global warming; DOMA getting struck down; Snowden/NSA crap
35. Who did you miss? 
2012--My GG. It still hurts.
2013-- Maureen
36. Who was the best new person you met? 
2012--Jake and Kandice.
2013-- Daniel
37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned this year.
2010--Memories have to be made but they are worth the effort.
2012--I don't know. I want to have a lesson about the Mirena but I'm not sure what it should be. I feel like no one was properly informed so I'm not sure what I could have done. Don't waste time; when it's gone, it's gone.
2013-- Be willing to let go of how things "have" to be. Sometimes the thing that makes change the hardest is your own inability to see it will be ok.